At the gym I go to, Koli and Ashley from the biggest loser put on a competition called lose it for life. It’s three months long, and they help with diet, workouts, and everything else. I didn’t join the competition, but I was able to get a workout with them tonight. It was a killer workout and I’m beat. It was a hour and a half long. The first hour there was 8 stations set up, and you have to go as hard as you can at each spot for a minute straight . You get about 5 seconds in between stations to get set up for the next station, and then start up again. It’s constantly moving, no breaks, it’s intense . Planks, medicine ball throws , kicking a punching bag , chest press on bosu balls, etc… That hour was like never ending . The last half hour we ended with running on the basketball court. I haven’t worked out that hard in awhile. I will sleep well tonight.
Just got done with morning spin class. I haven’t been in a few months, so it was brutal. Working out this hard in the morning will help me keep my eating on track during football today.
I’m down 3.8 lbs this week. I’m heading in the right direction again, so I’m happy about that. I still had some mess ups during the week, and I didn’t work out all weekend, so I know If I really tighten everything up, I can lose more than 3.8 in a week, and I will. Tomorrow I get to work out with Koli and learn some of the exercises and workouts he did when he was on the biggest loser, and I’m looking forward to that.
Stair stepper tonight….. 2.29 miles isn’t much when I’m jogging or walking, but when I’m on the stairs, it’s like death after the first five minutes. Overall I only did 30 minutes, 600 calories, and just under 2.5 miles. I also lifted tonight and did a warm up on the bike. The beginning of every week starts out great for me. Monday thru Wednesday I kill it in the gym, and I eat good. Thursday thru Sunday I kill it in the drive in……… Which is horrible. The weekends have really been the hardest . I can’t wait until football season is over. I’m not using football season as a excuse because it’s my own fault, but every weekend when I’m hanging out with my buddies watching football, it always seems like its a little easier to start eating junk . I just have to keep my focus that I start every week out with.
Today was a solid day for me . I got a lot of stuff done, ate well, and had a great workout. I started out with warming up on the elliptical, then I did two rounds of lifting(upper body) and ended with more cardio on the stair master. Once I got home Sarah was making me a really good dinner, chicken stir fry, peas, and green beans. After that I prepared my meals for tomorrow and called it a night.
Dinner tonight is grilled chicken salad.
Solid cardio tonight on the stair master. I hate that thing .
Breakfast today is a protein spinach shake .
Just feeling so gross and disgusted with myself right now that if I don’t write something and get it out, it’s just going to keep getting worse, so here it goes. I had a good day eating today up until this evening. I counted all my points for the day, I was doing well, then dinner came around and I just pigged out and ruined the entire day. I had a bunch of nasty Chinese food that I didn’t even want. It was my own fault. Lack of preparation is what kills me every time. I keep telling myself on nights like this that I can just put off making dinner, and then just have something small and go to bed. This plan always works out so well, right up until its time to eat, and then I take a small detour, and before I know it I feel like a over inflated balloon. It’s the same thing over and over again. When am I going to learn? I just don’t get what it’s going to take for me to get this through my head that I can’t keep doing this. Everyday that goes by my clothes get a little more snug, the belt gets a little bit tighter, and once again I slowly start to go to a place that I just hate. I start sticking to myself, I get uncomfortable doing anything because I’m just flat out embarrassed of what I look like plain and simple. I have gained almost all of the weight I have lost except for 20 pounds. I gained it all back in a hurry, and it’s just scary. I keep thinking about how much I have put back on, how hard it’s going to be to take it off for about the 10th time, and I just kind of let those thoughts consume me and I can’t keep doing that. I hate being over weight more then anything in the world, and I know the only way I can beat it is just keep trying. I signed up for weight watchers last week with my sister. Who joins weight watchers the week before Christmas? Terrible idea. My weigh in day is tomorrow and I know I gained. This week I’m going to try something different….. Instead of looking at what my goal down the road, and seeing this huge number in my head that I want to lose, I’m just going to look at next Wednesday, and focus on losing five pounds for the week. I can’t keep setting myself up by thinking in my head that I want to lose 80-100 pounds, and then once I realize how far off that goal is, I just derail myself. So there it is, I just wanted to get that out. I’m not looking for a bunch of rah rah rah you can do it, or sympathy, or any crap like that, I just simply wanted to get this out of my head, and now I feel better. I will get this done.
Breakfast today is 2 egg white mini omelets, and a spinach shake. The spinach shake is awesome. If anyone wants to make it all you need is 3/4 cup unsweetened almond milk, half banana, handful of berries of any kind, 1 scoop protein powder, a little scoop of peanut butter, and a big handful of spinach. Really good stuff.
